Deana (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} deanster) wrote,@ 2008-03-03 15:12:00 |
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| Current location: | k-vegas |
| Current mood: |  loved |
Grin and *bare* it.
I've found that I don't listen to nearly as much Christian Rock as I used to (despite the fact that I've directed two bands of that nature in my day, and was, at one point, a walking card catalog of theme-classified lyrics). However, it's still nice that it's always there when I need it most or least expect it to hit me upside the head (i.e. during Mass especially).
We sang this one yesterday, and it really penetrated my heart. Some songs I just feel more than others, and this was one of them. The more I (or we as a band) feel the lyrics we're proclaiming, the more I pray that the people singing along feel them too...but then, perhaps they hope the same for all those around them when a given song resonates with something from their own life.
Everyone needs compassion
Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a savior
The hope of nations
What power there is to baring your soul in front of many--or even amidst many! ...And it doesn't matter if you're in a crowd or on a stage with a microphone. It's still real, honest, forthright. As time has progressed, I've come to strive to wear my heart on my sleeve, along with a more authentic display of the person whom I am today. And you know what? It's refreshing...and strangely, yet strengthening, comforting. At least for me.Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a savior
The hope of nations
So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Diving into pretty much anything with your all or letting someone see you is still a scary concept, especially when fear sneaks in. But it can also be exciting. I firmly believe that as long as you acknowledge, understand, and accept that risk--but more so, the beauty that comes with taking that chance--it's still worth it. My heart goes out to all of those who are hurting around me--now above most times, really...because I have to say that I'm quite happy right now. And it's a happiness that I want to shout from the mountaintops, as it's all bubbling up and wanting to shine in a million directions...but I know there's still time. It seems that with God's/god's plans (or even that which we ourselves become resolute about) continue to throw us for a loop when we least expect it, but I think it's good that we're kept on our toes, don't you? If we knew what to expect, wouldn't we miss out on the "now" in anticipation? If I could give any unsolicited advice to you loyal readers, I'd say savor your moments, lads and lasses. Find your grace and let it shape you. As Fr. Bill says, it does form you with time. Whether your grace comes from "God" or a passion in your life, grab a hold of it and let it envelop, change you.
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
I'm grateful that I finally know how to not hold back in my life, but also how to be pretty much okay and happy with myself, too. I'm SO much more present, so much more in tune...so much more honest with myself. I still have a lot of work of do (you have no idea), but it's nice to know that I'm supported through it all. With grace comes light, and with light comes understanding, clarity, renewal.
I have a lot of work ahead, but I know and trust that it will work out, so long as I keep fighting for my dreams. And I believe the same for you. As long as there's hope, there's still a fighting chance to be had in this life. And if/when hope fails in one area, seize the parts where it still lives on. Dwelling on our despair can bring us comfort, yes, whether out of sympathy or embraces from others--and it's inevitable to have those moments every now and then...but the connections we can form by giving back ourselves to others and growing is all the more rewarding. However, it that doesn't necessarily mean that it's not going to be painful to grow--my periods of growth have actually been a lot more painful at times, but in the end, it's just so worth it. It really is.
If I may humored upon my soapbox for a moment more, I implore you to seize the graces of clarity, love and joy that you meet (and that you've known, so long as you don't let it pull you back into despair)...Remember it and let it carry you through, because it does, it has, and it will...if you allow it. It's a wonder how much shining a little light into our darkness can change us.
Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King
